wholeheartedly

For once,

I wanna be someone first choice

not the one they have lesson with 

I wanna be the one they focused on

I wanna be the one they fight to be with

They wanna be with

I dont wanna be the one they look for when things are hard and forgets when things are good

I dont want to be the distraction from their problem

I want to be the one they stressed about

for once,

i wanna be hold so tight cause they dont think they will ever find someone else like me anymore

for once,

i wanna be loved so so much their heart hurts while thinking of me

for once,

i want to be the one they beg universe for--they pray for even when they dont believe in any god--i want to be loved that much

cause i think im gonna cry

i think i might cry

i want to be loved as deep as i love

when will i experience that? im scared that i'll never experience that at all. And on top of that, im a hopeless romantic? I live to love and be loved. 

I know life isn't all about that

But i think i'll be so so sorry for me if i don't ever get to experience in this lifetime. I wanna be loved so bad. I wanna be loved wholeheartedly.