11.11

tonight, like any other night

i crawled in bed, about to sleep

but suddenly so many thoughts pop up onto my mind

about responsibility, work, stuff

especially, today. it hits hard, i feel quite sentimental tonight; 49 minutes to tomorrow.

and you know, it rains. i cant help it, right?

ah, it's cold, too.

anyway..

i feel like something's kinda off, kinda missing lately.

have i been feeling less lately? sure, i have not talked much for the past month, because, oh well, quarantine.

it that is?

i laugh less, less sad, less happy, too.

less busy, less work, loooots of sleep.

i look at sky often, i tapes them, too.

it is actually nice to stay home all day. i work until evening and then quickly shower to close the day. It became a routine now. Talking to my friends by phone only now. But that too, i do less now. You could say i'm kinda lazy. Everything's fine..

but

something's missing.. something's off.

i wonder... what is it?