It scary that things changed easily. I used to disbelieving that teory-until it happened to me.
"People changes." They said.
"People left." They said.
"And it's normal."
Well, in my case-me who believed that i got the most loving peeps around me-will never do that to me. Or ever made me feel like that.
But above all my theory-under my consciousness- it all happened in a blink. Slowly exactly.
You don't even know it happened. It was one day until you realized you got nothing to talk anymore. And then you realized they have changed. Or you have changed. But one things remains same for you. For they will never able replaced for anyone else in your heart.
You will meet new people and so are they, but sadly in the end of the day, you are not the people they told story about anymore.
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To accept it?
It was no easy.
For me, i do not want anyone else being half-hearted with me. Black or white. Be there or never be there at the first place. For me being the "second person" hurt much more than being nothing at all.
So i chose being nothing at all.
I prevent myself. I defend myself.
I may look cold, but hey. This is who i am. But me right here, i can tell you that if i cherish you, i will surely be by your side.
And here I am now.
I have never fully accepted it. It still spinning all in my head. Even my past feels like a dream i just wake up from.
Now in present.
I've got to be strong.
People changes, they said.
And yes, i agree, now.
Everybody changes. But some of they remain. They, that remains, keep them, cherish them. Because what else do we got except people who are there for us no matter what?
You still have a long way. Find people that stick for you no matter what, Until the end of the day.
That changes but never left.
18/07/17
