Thankful

I like you as a human being,
I see love in you,
I see kindness no one offer to me.

And when i said i still love him-
Believe me that i lied.

I can't say exactly what i feel for you-
Believe me when i said it's the first time i feel like this.
I am confused, too.

I admit,
I like you.
But, no, i don't want you.

I don't want to ruin us,
I'm fine like this.
Exactly fine.

But hey, you know my feelings,
And you still befriend me,
You are not disgusted with me.
I am thankful for that.

But i won't fall more for you,
I'm sorry.
To tell you the truth,
I'm scared.
I'm scared there'll be no us anymore.
Even if us only exist in me, of course.
I'm scared if you see through my eyes,
You will see me screaming,
Screaming for your smile,
I'm scared if you touch me again,
My heart will be prisoned in there,
That black dark place that i just got out from.
That lonely place.
The place for the unloved.

I'm such a coward, i know.
But i hope you just act like you don't know,
And still befriend me,
Cause that's enough,
I'm thankful for that.

Candy

Just like a candy,
You are sweet.
Very sweet indeed,
Every move you made
Only good vibe that shared.

But darling,
Everyone knows,
Every candy literally melts,
They melts until they left a sour feelings into your mouth,
And then you beg for more,
More-
More-
More-

But no, life does not give you candy,
Happiness,
That easy.
.
.
.
My friend said,
"I want a happy ending,
You and him."

She said,
"Let her heart broke once."

I don't know i am a fool or what,
But i think i am.
Maybe i'm giving,
I'm giving my candy for her.
Candy that wasn't even mine in the first place.