I think now i know how nugget feels.
When it being placed down in a bowl of boiling oil.
Fresh from refrigerator-
Cold and stiff.
Nugget never saw it coming, i mean.
It never know when it will be drowned into a sea of boiling oil.
And that's when he decided to came in.
Nugget was off-guard.
I was off-guard.
"Plung"
.
.
.
.
"Shhh....."
That's how my heart felt.
When we're in bus you standing in front me giggling and joking to the other girls, i did my best to avoid your gaze and teased my friend until i overdid it and he ended up annoyed at me. You was laughing with my best friend and you caught my gaze, you were laughing, of course. You always laugh anyway, i'd never thought that i would fell for that smile, but i did without i ever realized it. And then you talked to me, i swear it felt like ages since i saw your face, your-full face, not stolen glances, not a sided look. But your whole-face, shine brightly as the sun poured it to you. I swear your eyes aren't brown and i dont think i could fall for another person that dont have brown eyes-
But yes, i do fall. And in my agony your lightly took my hand, i swear my breath stopped, and then you placed it in your hand and size whose hand was bigger. My heart stopped.
No.
It didn't stop.
You made it beat again.
.
.
.
And then you threw my hand away, and then you laugh, laugh, laugh.
And then you touched her hand.
And you laugh.
The more i like you,
The more i drifting further.
Your face-
Is the thing i don't wanna stare.
I've tried my all
To ignore your crooked nose-
In case my vein tried to memorise it.
The colour of your eyes,
No-
I don't want to recall.
The way you talk others-
Smile to them,
But me-
We used to tease each other-
The world echoing our voice,
Our memories,
Or it's just my memories alone?
I have no idea.
The way you avoid my eyes,
My voice,
I don't even suprised.
I don't even hurting anymore.
I'm sorry.
Belahan daun pecah
Meninggalkan tiada tapi asa
Bunyi-
Tak terdengar lagi.
Hanya usap mata,
tertawaan wanita rupa,
Dan kepura-puraan.
"Tidak seharusnya kamu jatuh"
Kata otak.
"Tidak seharusnya aku jatuh"
Kata benda berdetak.
